it's time to move on.

life in another chapter.

2008-04-07T18:21:00.002+08:00

if you wish to get in touch,

feel free to reach me at suhana.supian@gmail.com

no big deal with twenty

2008-03-13T17:24:00.003+08:00

thanks for the wishes.

thanks for your time today.

on the other hand,

i have issues with you, mr poet. unresolved.

i thought you forgot.

flower, the remedy

2008-03-10T22:02:00.004+08:00

for some reasons, i don't mind being a florist!

tears from the misses.

2008-03-07T02:23:00.002+08:00

please be back soon....

i'm patiently waiting.

wow,product design!

2008-03-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

30 Most Creative Bookshelf Design

i wish i had them in my home.

i don't mind living in a home filled with books :)

3 years, and it all comes down to this.

2008-03-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

scared.

2008-02-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

what's next?

i want it really OVER by wednesday!

2008-02-17T16:23:00.001+08:00

very

troubled.

thus, the desperate need to bake.

love is sacrifice.

2008-02-15T20:02:00.002+08:00

it's been days and night without the sound of your voice. this is just the beginning, i'm not prepared for what's coming in march. :(

come back soon, please.

in desperate need of strength.

2008-02-13T09:28:00.000+08:00

my meals decided to be angry starting last night and it all rushed up the throat and gushed out of the mouth. was wondering wth i ate. it was all green and slimy. urgh.

there's blood in my phlegm :s okay, that's kinda sick.

this morning wasn't any different either. :(

the voice is disappearing...

2008-02-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

things are getting better. but it's moving very s-l-o-w.

maybe in a few days things will start falling into the right places.

i know now i may not be treating you right,

but i do know my future with you will be bright.

i died too many times.

2008-02-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

oh wow. the end of monday is here.

and it hasn't ended.

folio and prototype is due 5pm tomorrow. : (

the presentation's crap. the test was screwed.

the start of the year is horrible.

oh dear god, please give me strength and have faith in me.

that shall be the motivation! woohoo!!

2008-01-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

i am so relieved half the week has gone by. this means half the load is off my shoulders.

STILL....

there's PDAI! (the submission which i have been dreading! i just can't wait for it to be over!)

there's just so much to be done for that submission alone!! :(

2 more days!! yes yes!!

definitely looking forward to all the sleepovers, latenights(of guilt-free) and girltalks and outings! YAY!

boring pro-e led me to this...

2008-01-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

1. Taken a picture naked? no
2. Painted your room? yes
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? no
4. Drove a car? no
5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes
6. Have a crush? yes
7. Been dumped? yes
8. Stole money from friend? no
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes
10. Been in a fist fight? no
11. Snuck out of your house? no
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
13. Been arrested? no
14. Made out with a stranger? yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? no
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? NO
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
20. Seen someone die? no21. Been on a plane? no22. Kissed a picture? yes23. Slept in until 3PM? yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes
26. Made a snow angel? no
27. Played dress up? yes
28. Cheated while playing a game? yes
29. Been lonely? yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
31. Been to a club? yes
32. Felt an earthquake? no
33. Touched a snake? YES!
34. Ran a red light? don't think so.
35. Been suspended from school? no
36. Had detention? yes
37. Been in a car accident? no
38. Hated the way you look? yes
39. Witnessed a crime? no
40. Pole danced? no
41. Been lost? yes,countless times!
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes, ALMOST EVERYDAY!
43. Felt like dying? yes4
4. Cried yourself to sleep? yes
46. Sang karaoke? NO!
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? YES!
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? no
50. Kissed in the rain? yes!
51. Sing in the shower? yes
52. Made love in a park? yes
53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes
54. Glued your hand to something? yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO!
57. Been a cheerleader? yes
58. Sat on a roof top? yeap
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes, haha!
61. Played chicken? yes
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? no
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes
64. Broken a bone? no
65. Been easily amused? yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone? no?
68. Cheated on a test? yes
69. Forgotten someone's name? yes
70. Slept naked? yes
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? no
73. Blacked out from drinking? no
74. Played a prank on someone? yes
75. Gone to a late night movie? yes
76. Made love to anything not human? no
77. Failed a class? no
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? yes, haha
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? no
82. Thrown strange objects? yes
83. Felt like killing someone? yes
84. Thought about running away? yes
85. Ran away? no
86. Did drugs? no
87. Had detention and not attend it? yes
89. Made a parent cry? yes
90. Cried over someone? yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no
92. Dated someone more than once? surprisingly, yes.. haha
93. Have a dog? no!
94. Own an instrument? yes
95. Been in a band? no
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no
97. Broken a cd? yes
98. Shot a gun? no

dear god...

2008-01-28T12:24:00.000+08:00

endure

endure!

Lost in Space

2008-01-28T12:12:00.000+08:00

I wasn’t really sleeping well last night. I knew I was taking a nap and waking every single hour trying to overcome the exhaustion in order to get back to work. Of course my body was succumbing to having the much-needed rest.

Subconsciously, I was thinking about the pile of projects/work that I have to face upon snapping into reality. There have been times whereby I woke up having my solution to my design problem. Sigh. It’s been a long time since I last slept guilt-free and smiling.

Like every other night these days, I woke up with worries clogging my thoughts. Will I ever meet the finishing line? The closer it gets, the more uncertain I get. It seems the last lap is the hardest. I don’t even know whether I can do it. I am in doubts about my strengths and ability.

I knew I used to be so positive and self-motivated. Lately. I have been so fearful about school. Running away is not a solution. You don’t have to remind me that. But I don’t know what is it that has kept me away from facing it. Incomplete work? I guess not. Because I am certainly okay with having incomplete work, to a certain extend that is.

I still think it is me. I am even failing to my own expectations. Since young, I have high expectations on myself. And I know that’s has kept me going, especially achieving what I am today. At least I know if I don’t reach the star, I will land on the clouds which is still acceptable to be able to live with it.

My morale is seriously, at the lowest peak. I have to pick myself up immediately. The end is near and there isn’t much time left. I am not as strong as how I knew I used to be. All the determination seemed to have disappeared.

I can’t disappoint the people who believed and have high hopes on me

For now, I’ll just keep trying, trying, trying… it’s just a matter of time.

For any PDI-ians reading, all the best and give it your all for the remaining days. (:

The end is near, we all just have to endure.

there goes the weekend

2008-01-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

sigh, looks like there's a thousand and one things to get done this weekend. or maybe MORE. :(

the weekend is near, but it doesnt smell good.... :(

2008-01-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

i loved the date at fort canning. the short&long&hangin' conversations, attention and security... (:

thank you.

it gets depressing when the night sets in..

the cold wind accompanying you through your pile of work :(

i am in need of chocolates&sleep&warmth :(

sleepless.

2008-01-24T06:24:00.001+08:00

wokayyyyyyyyyyyyy. another day. . .uhuh uhhuh!

it's gonna be a long day. sigh.

i hate school!!! (for now)

can someone just take me home from school not by trainnnnnnnnnnnnnnn?

clementi,....dover... buona vista... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

it's not gonna be over tonight, not tomorrow, not the day after...

2008-01-23T09:11:00.000+08:00

i am so busy! i am even studying during the date. sucha loser. grrrrr.

i wish i could buy time. sigh. the to-do-list seems to be growing as fast as bacteria can breed. it's like every night i am burning midnight oil. i beginning to run out of oil in my body.

the sore throat's the latest new sign of the body giving in. i had to sleep it off last night. THUS, THE PILED UP WORK GETS STAGNANT! :( so much for napppingggggggggg. it will never work on me.

tomorrows never seem to get any better, in any way. it's so hard. im on the verge of breakdown everyday.

on another note, dear friend...

it seems like i dont know you anymore. it's like you lie to many times for me to forget you are a liar. i cant treat you the same anymore. forget about confronting, it will never work on you either. i know you're matured enough to think for yourself. Take care.

2008-01-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

arghhhh!

the modelling is getting from bad to worse!

blessed.

2008-01-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

hey you,

you've been an amazing companion. i am very thankful for everything. it seems you never fail to put that smile on my face. your random motivational talks and nags that kept me going.

the fact that you have never got impatient waiting and living with my tight and forever packed to-do-list. your understanding is very much appreciated.

i think i am very lucky to be your lady. you made me go ooooooooooooohhhhhh; so speechless with the most silly and sweetest acts. when im so close to tears, you always have your ways to tell me it'll be over soon if i were to make a little bit of effort to endure. not forgetting, you're always there for me, what more can i ask for?

i love you.

project,project,project!

2008-01-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

i simply JUST HAVE TO DO IT!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

uneasy

2008-01-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

i am down with food poisoning.

it's disgusting. the aftermath of puking.

it's been such a long time since i have this.

grossssssssssssssssss.

my stomach is like still 'mengulas'.

oh, shut up!

2008-01-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

i feel extremely fat.

it bothers me.

i think eating disorder might strike. -.-

hey school...

2008-01-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

...the old walls of NP haunt me in my sleep

......the old walls of NP haunt me in my sleep

.........the old walls of NP haunt me in my sleep

the clock continue to tick,tick,tick...

2008-01-01T15:15:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmmmm.... 2008 is going to be a BLAST!

i hope the diploma is going to turn out fine and secured,

and so the tiger and the dragon forecast a good year ahead.

reflection post gotta be on hold,haha.

or kok chong's assignment will be turned in late!

suhana, suhana. . .

2007-12-25T11:17:00.000+08:00

procrastination in progress. . .

HAH!

2007-12-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

10 REALLY RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

i need chocolate and caffeine everyday
i like my fingers
i think i'm fat
i hate plans
music can control me
some of my ex bfs are so kental
my instincts are 95% right always
i love spring cleaning
i secretly think i am very creative HAHA!
i am very random myself.

9 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART

just make my life filled with surprises.
be random
smile
sincerely funny
feed me with yummy indulging food
poetry
long endless convos'
macho dressing LOL!
be yourself!

8 THINGS I CARRY/WEAR EVERYDAY

my i/c
doraemon bag
handphone
earrings
contacts/glasses
atm card
lipstick&foundation
confidence

7 THINGS THAT ANNOY ME

bells
bitchy G**S
noisy horny animals
jiggling flabby fats
my sister's handphone ringing
the boyfriend singing
commuters in the train who can sleep still

6 PLACES I'VE VISITED

my bestfriend's houses
the bakery
the big bronze buddha in china
my kitchen
buckingham's palace
tea plantation

5 THINGS I LOVE

MY BED
Firdaus
hooded cardigans
cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeseeeeeeeeee
chocolates

4 THINGS I'M AFRAID OF

god
mum&dad
firdaus leaving
cockroaches

3 THINGS I DO EVERYDAY

brush my teeth
yawn
scratch my head

2 THINGS I'M TRYING NOT TO DO NOW

have sex. LOL!
drop out of school.

1 PERSON I WANT TO SEE NOW

astri nur rissa bte abdul razak. (:

i know i'm stong but i'm falling apart, somehow.

2007-12-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

the fear builds up as i run further.

i'm scared.

a voice in my head is telling me i'm not making the cut.

a bestfriend who changed. i am deeply disappointed. -.-

2007-12-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

It's okayyyyyyy. you owe me many! (excluding my birthday present)!

enough with artistic photos(they're are lil over-rated), ugly is beautiful. (:

i might get killed for posting this photo. HAHA

you also owe me an recount of everything!

the adorable japanese kid

2007-12-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Was damn bored, so i brought him out to Tampines Mall...

Underwater World Singapore On Monday

2007-12-18T17:44:00.001+08:00

A Day Out With The Mouse.

2007-12-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

2007-12-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

i am mentally tired, be it school or home.

i feel like throwing that kid out of the window. my home has never been the same since he arrived. he just made it worse.

How To Save A Life

2007-12-07T11:11:00.000+08:00

The Fray's is on repeat in my iTunes (:

It seems that iTunes seems to be only thing that's still within my control. and it's not something good. everything's collapsing, in one way or another. i am living in a world of pretend. playing pretend is just tiring.

knowing you can just withdraw and your life is basically by your choices. i know i can, for the certainty and confidence of the things i wanna do and achieve in life. but apart from all that, a tinge of fear of failure and the whole world blaming you (the advice they give falling on deaf ears, like having the taste of your own medicine) it's very much holding me back.

at this point in time, i realised that this is the 2nd time it's happening. definitely, something's not appropriate. how can things go wrong when you try so hard. i must be blinded and passed it with much ignorance. maybe it's something small.

arghh, fuck. can i just pack my bag and go?

mum once told me she never minds whatever i wanna do, if its for my own good. it's okay if can't make it. on other hand, am i gonna disappoint her if choose to fail this time? as much as i don't want to, i am so sick of this routine now.

i wanna shut off for awhile. to get back on track and get everything done.

if you wanna reach me, it's 91963451.

msn is out of order, i've deleted it off my system.

status:

2007-12-06T00:20:00.001+08:00

i'll be sleeping till 1.30am.

that gives me only 5.5 hrs before i have to get ready for school.

so let's see what i am capable of. hopefully, miracles do happen!

bsb forever?

2007-12-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

listening to boyband songs is very sentimental.

it reminds me of how life used to be so ......

simple.

This Is Me!

2007-11-30T13:16:00.000+08:00

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2007-11-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

Lyrics:

Giselle:

How does she know you love her?

How does she know she's yours?

Man:

How does she know that you love her?

Giselle:

How do you show her you love her?

Both:

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?

How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

Giselle:

It's not enough to take the one you love for granted

You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...

"How do I know he loves me?"

(How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you love her?)

"How do I know he's mine?"

(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?

Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!

He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday

That's how you know, that's how you know!

He's your love...

Man:

You've got to show her you need her

Don't treat her like a mind reader

Each day do something to need her

To believe you love her

Giselle:

Everybody wants to live happily ever after

Everybody wants to know their true love is true...

How do you know he loves you?

(How does she know that you love her?

How do you show her you need her?)

How do you know he's yours?

(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?

Dedicate a song with words in

Just for you? Ohhh!

All:

He'll find his own way to tell you

With the little things he'll do

That's how you know

That's how you know!

Giselle:

He's your love

He's your love...

That's how you know

(la la la la la la la la)

He loves you

(la la la la la la la la)

That's how you know

(la la la la la la la la)

It's true

(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color

Just so he can match your eyes

Rent a private picnic

By the fires glow-oohh!

All:

His heart will be yours forever

Something everyday will show

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know

(That's how you know)

That's how you know!

Giselle:

He's your love...

Man:

That's how she knows that you love her

That's how you show her you love her

Giselle:

That's how you know...

He's your love...

that was then.

2007-11-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

it was never meant to be.

yeah, what the....

2007-11-26T20:23:00.000+08:00

Is it my hearing or my mind isn't focus?

I was supposed to meet the boyfriend at BUKIT BATOK. Upon reaching the school bus stop, there was 61 and people were still boarding. It didn't cross my mind to board!! I was just strolling to the bus stop. And when 184 came next in line, CHING AND I RUSHED FOR IT. Then at the entrance, i stopped and said, "EH, noo, i'm supposed to take 61!" Others behind me were already like, EXCUSE MEEEE -.- Ching boarded the bus looking puzzled, thinking why the hell didn't i board.. WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!!!
Dad ask for tissue, i passed him the plate of Roti John on the table.
I broke a glass and i didn't even realize it until i saw the broken pieces!! Don't know how it slipped off my grip.
My mum asked me to unlock the gate, i obediently SWITCH ON THE TV!!! There is really no link in GATE AND TV!!!
I was unconsciously using the facial wash as shower foam.
Mum wanted me to pass her the cushion, i took a piece of tissue and wipe the dirt on the floor!!!!
WHAT'S NEXT?!

aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

life's like that...

2007-11-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

everyone's tired, we all know that.
let's pull ourselves together and get it over and done with.
we have to, somehow.

*thanks aliyah (:

dinner some day?

2007-11-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

we are just friends
but i still hold you close for comfort
for each time i fall
you always have the right words to say

now we're on separate ways
i know you're always there
there's just something about you
that calms my insecurities

we're only friends
yet you pick me up effortlessly
thank you for your concern
i guess that's what friends are for :)

for the truth still stands strong,
i miss having you around in school.
rides home don't seem to be the same.

xoxo
Suhana Supian

on the fast lane.

2007-11-21T19:57:00.000+08:00

a more recent photo :)

2007-11-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

i think the previous photo is too old, you ppl can't recognise me!
it was taken in 2003 btw.

this is taken 1 or 2 years ago, i think!
:)

take me awayyy. . .

2007-11-19T12:27:00.000+08:00

omg. i am super duper sleepy! && and it's only 12 in the afternoon. -.-

i wasn't supposed to sleep last night so that i'd be awake to be early for school.
but nooooooooooo....!

something just had to keep disturbing.
it went away after some prayers were being recited.
but it came back again and again. -.-

so i decided to sleep and wait for subuh
then, only god knows what happens after that......

shuk was telling me that i could go to school together with him IF I WERE TO MISS MY FIRST LESSON.
i confidently answered NO, I CAN'T.
now, i miss 2 lessons instead of ONE.
kns. WELL DONE AH, HANA! (you better get your work done soon!)

i still have 2 items on my to-do that are on the priority section.
argh!!

i need a treat soon. or else the drive will just DIE.
hopefully, friday's good.

downstream.

2007-11-17T12:11:00.000+08:00

i think the pay's going to the concession.
sigh.

there goes the alternative remedy.

bye bye retail therapy for november.

do la whatever that makes you happy.

2007-11-17T12:01:00.000+08:00

i am so mad right now!

and to not make matters worse, i should just sleep it off.

damn the weekend(s)/week(s).
i guess it is in the trash now.

don't feel like talking about it too.
i guess you ought to know. BYE.

*nothing, except a proper meeting, will work.
*anything other than that, don't bother asking.
seriously.

my family portrait (:

2007-11-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

he who showed me what's love all about

2007-11-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

".....i'm sorry for hurting you.Was never my intention nor my wish.The guilt in me is tremendous.But i shall work thru it.Farewell my dear.Take care."

wherever you are, i hope you're alright.
we both know the distance do us good.

bye

2007-11-11T18:05:00.000+08:00

there's so much to do.
i don't even feel like talking,
to anybody or anyone.

PRESENTING.............

2007-11-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

CIK SU!

when the world starts crying too.

2007-11-07T10:35:00.001+08:00

it's the saddest when she said maybe it was a mistake to have kept you for that 9 mths.

but i guess i should be strong.
i pray everything will be alright soon.
it has to be, somehow.

please.

2007-11-06T19:51:00.001+08:00

hopefully everything will be alright before school starts tomorrow.

2007-11-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

super duper STRESS!

woooooo.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

hello world.

2007-11-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

projects are SERIOUSLY piling!
erm, i am under the pile obviously.

& mum just had to give the responsibility lecture in the morning!
it's all because of the late nights out.
the stupidest is, she claimed that my westside friends are buying me over...
-.-

i think she never realised i'm NINETEEN. acknowledging me as NINE.
when you're the youngest.... you will never grow up.
i kinda hate that. suckyyyyyyyyy!

i think she is afraid that THAT episode in 2004 will repeat itself.
urgh, whatever.
bye!

dear pdi friends,...

2007-11-04T20:21:00.000+08:00

i
am
sleeping
tonight.
definitely not doing any work.

haha! :)

boys will always be boys

2007-11-03T10:22:00.000+08:00

they are all the same.
i guess when they get comfortable, they become complacent.

i miss the quirkiness. :(
it's like not the same. :(

wondering.

2007-11-03T01:55:00.000+08:00

it's not that i want you, i need you.
i am not with you. i've grown to be a part of you.
------------------------------------------

someone asked, why am i still attached despite the many obstacles that seems to be signs of unhappiness.
still,.... i am really glad to be with him.

you can say whatever.
but i am contented and happy, he completes me.
matters of the heart sometimes need no explanations.
you just know it.

patience run dry.

2007-10-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

i finally had enough of you, hypocritical friends.

save all your concerns and so-called missing you.

RRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD!

2007-10-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:(

in a weekend :(

2007-10-26T17:45:00.000+08:00

Things To Do:

1. PDAI
• PDI Journal
• Research Results for Presentation (Market Research, Information Search & User-Centered Design Research)
• E-Learning

2. BPM (FOO's Class)
• Survey Results
• Proposal Report
(Due in 2 weeks)

3. ASPD (MAY HUA)
• Video Thingy : Information Search

4. PUMPKIN’S MODULE
• Tutorial Chapter 3

surprise, where the bloody hell are you?

2007-10-26T14:28:00.000+08:00

wow. it's been so long since i last blogged.
i need some time off, like going out or shopping by myself.

honestly,i miss him terribly. Been so busy and worned out by school alongside with the raya-ing. i can barely remember when was the last date we had. ): It isn't exactly fair that each time he calls, my mood is so DEAD. Even Kushal said that my friends and i walk around in school aimlessly as if we're part of a funeral march. :( I think school is just sucking all the energy in my body, making us drag ourselves everywhere.

anywayyyyyyyyyyyy, it feels good to be spending more time with the girlfriend. makes me feel very, very happy.

ok, back to class. (sickening!)

workload from school is ..............................

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

paycheck's not coming in yet! kns -.-

i want a new
- pair of m)phosis,havaiinas slippers
- white bikini
- shorts
- bright coloured tops
- pretty dresses
- chocolates & ice cream
- bag
- red ipod shuffle

oh the pumpkin is smashing!

2007-10-06T04:09:00.000+08:00

*it makes my day when you told me i've been missed !

*touch-n-go reminders

2007-10-05T12:27:00.000+08:00

i need to get a pair of white bikini, several fake lashes, 3 pieces of facial mask and a hooded dress.

and also heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels!

i think benzoyl peroxide too.

i can't wait to meet the chikedings later! yay!!!
my heart is racing!

woooo la la!

2007-10-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

gosh, im begining to fall sick. this is quite bad.
patience is the key.

i have been up to endless amount of errands.
up to such an extent that i feel like a makcik.
oh god bless.

tho' countless have been done, i still have a list to do!
i'll most probably be one of the happiest person when hari raya arrives.

for now, i have some MORE baking,painting and fixing of curtains and unnecessary decors.
but the flu is being such a nuisance.

babysitting is just the worse of it all.
i can't believe i survived groceries shopping with a 2 yr old kid. me & the kid.

i haven't been out with the boyfriend even.
damn, i miss dates with the smashing pumpkin.

i guess all of these will come to a good end. i hope so.

friday with the chikedings! (:(:(:

a little distant

2007-09-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

so many things happening at the same time.
been as busy as ever!

i think i took too much orders!
hopefully, i can get them all done!
sheesh.

a pinch of boredom

2007-09-15T06:22:00.000+08:00

You Are Most Like Charlize Theron

“I think of myself as a highly sexual creature.”

What Modern Bombshell Are You Most Like?

this is a little disturbing.
highly sexual creature? errrrr....

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.
You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.
Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

but this is good. i guess it helps :)) haha.

smooth sailing

2007-09-15T05:38:00.000+08:00

Hmmmmmmmm...

i am a little apprehensive about updating the blog. just a gut feeling. maybe all i wanna do for this term break is just get away from all the routine or not have any association with school. i need a REAL TIME OUT. seriously, i am sick of school. can't wait to g-r-a-d-u-a-t-e! i can't even remember when was the last time i had a school holiday.

school holidays=endless flow of FREE time :))

Shopping's really out of the question. i am really broke, excluding daily expenses. sigh. i guess that's the only flaw of the holiday. damn! but all i really want is a pair of gorgeous heels. is that too much to ask for? and no one in the household is willing to give in to the suhana shopping fund :( okay, maybe i asked at the wrong timing? lets hope with a little more begging and persuasion, they will give in! if not, ..... errm. i gotta wreck my brains for some other solutions!

Since i am deprieved on shopping, the attention has been moved to dearest besties, like finally. i am very much thankful to once again spend more than just a meal with them :) thanks guys, for missing appointments,tuitions, boyfriend/girlfriend outings :) i appreciate it. now mr firdaus can't say they are my bestfriend yet he doesnt hear me mentioning them or meeting them at all in months. heh.

i guess we have a kind of understanding or agreement, to not disturb one another when one is busy with the school term or is just WAY TOO busy. so when we are free, we meet as much as we can, updating one another, just be carefree and enjoy the company. :)

oh yeah, results came out yesterday. i seriously thought i would fail the semester and have half a year more in NP. but thank god, i pass both my modules! grades werent bad neither were they that fantastic. i am just grateful my gpa got back to where it should be, not there yet but close. last semester was just a total disappointment. anyway, alhamdullilah.

the incomplete prototype is rotting at the corner of my room. :x i might get in touch with it SOON. god knows how soon. haha.

so what have i been occupied with besides get togethers and ULTIMATE SLACKING,.....
i am an asst. teacher, doing freelance design work for a company and getting my business line started.
thus, i may be broke now but money is definitely rolling in soooooooooooon!
i am definitely gonna get that pair of aldo shoes! :))

and one thing for sure, i am getting adequate sleep. :)

for fellow muslim friends, happy fasting!

happy hana banana!

2007-09-09T19:40:00.000+08:00

i will blog soon :)

busy with family, boyfriends & bestfriends :)

best of friends don't expect anything for what they give. .

2007-08-19T20:57:00.000+08:00

As we go on we remember all the times we had together,
The laughters,jokes,silly acts, funny face expressions,the boys.
And as our lives change, come whatever...
We know we can always count on each other.
We will always be the bestest girlfriends :)
i love you, babes!

We'll always be happy for each other,
Help each other whenever one falls,
Understands and never compare be jealous, right?
Probably, just laugh it off, like always! HAHAHAHAHA.
God Bless. :)

Featuring my 'Kukuruk' Design Friend (:

2007-08-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

MY SILLY PARTNER IN CRIME...

.... PRESENTING WITH HER ENTIRE FACE COVERED EXCEPT...

her mouth.

just like the way she wanted it to be :)

hi ching!

TWO

2007-08-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel like going home now.
but i can't.
basically because i won't do the bulk of the folio when i get home. this sucks.
2 more days.
PATIENCE !!!
OMG.

2,2,2,2,2,2,2,2,........2 days!

my smashing pumpkin.

2007-08-09T02:10:00.000+08:00

turn me into a printer.

2007-08-07T21:49:00.000+08:00

it is a good thing assessment is postponed to Friday.

BUT THURSDAY IS A HOLIDAY!
I WONT BE ABLE TO PRINT....... *CB!

argh.

and stupid throbbing headaches and heaty-ness won't go away!!

another day gone by.

2007-08-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

I was supposed to be doing my work last night. I told Ching i have planned to start at 7pm. :x But at around 7pm, Ching msged me over MSN and invited me to join Kelvin and herself for dinner. So there goes the night. . .

We went out for dinner and watched The Simpsons Movie. It was a great night. The dinner was chessy & tomatolicious. I LIKE! However, i was too full to finish it all. Now it makes me think about that dish again,damn. Simpsons was hilarious. Worth the money :D

Thanks Kelvin for driving all the way! :)
My neighbourhood isn't that complicated, yeah?

&& don't be such a shy guy. hehe. :)

and now back to F.O.L.I.O.

=)

Green Tea's giving me the energy...........

in agony

2007-08-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

The aftermath of NAPFA test is terrible. My entire body is aching! The worse is my left ankle. Now I am limping more. Suddenly, it hurts to walk even if it is just a step. :( It feels as though there are pins poking my joints.

The thought of climbing the hill up to studio&project room.... i think i might take an hour walking.
It hurts real bad. ARGH. !@#$%^&*!

And the ultimate test to the prototype is tonight. The verdict whether it will work. I really, really hope it does.
Weekends are burnt for project. (:
At least 'kukuruk ching' will be around!

girlfriends forever, boyfriends whatever. heh.

2007-08-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

Ironically, i feel very happy.

2007-08-01T21:51:00.000+08:00

Exclusive of today, i am left with exactly 6 days to complete my project. Such a short period of time, but it is the last lap. Have to make this through. By hook or by crook, the finishing like has to be met. Setting aside all the complains and whining and JUST DO IT.

I don't care if i have to sacrifice so much for these 6 days. These 6 days will never happen again unless I REALLY ASK FOR IT. And that will cost me another academic year. If that happens, i think i will be declared the stupidest and weakest in the family. The worse criticism will be by none other than my 2nd brother. Okay, let's not even go there.

I failed my NAPFA test, haha. I have never failed it before. I guess after so long of this piggy lifestyle, i deserve it. :x HAHA. I think i can declare myself a pig for now. GEEZ. Been dozing off every other time. My bedtime has never passed midnight! For me, it's bad. Early Bedtime = Accumulated Work not Early Bedtime = Adequate Sleep (FRESH & HEALTHY). I don't think that will ever be the case for me.

Erm, i miss going for dates, both with girlfriends&boyfriends&THE boyfriend. I will reward myself after this coming week, seriously. I think i need it, desperately. I need to boost my level of happiness. But i can bet that I'll have it back by the time the FINAL PRESENTATION IS OVER. The very last second can spark off. The reaction will be immediate. GUARANTEE! :) haha.

Just thinking about all the time in the world that i can have.... makes me want these 6 days to pass faster!
Is scary to think that i can't finish. Let's all be optimistic for once. :D

Mum has confirmed the date to fly off to San Fransisco, on the 25th of Aug! YAY! Looks like she didn't change her mind to go to Indonesia instead, since the last of my 2nd cousin's wedding is next year! YAAYYYNESSSSS! :D:D:D:D Will be meeting my cousin who's living in San Fransisco. Hope she has a nice place. :D

I am not in school today, nothing new though. Being in the project room not only distracts me but makes me feel very sad. I don't even know why i feel sad. But i feel very down automatically. It's psychological, i think. I don't mind going to school, however, such an impact makes me feel very LAZY to do my work. Thus, makes my progress un-progressive.

I WILL DO MY BEST THIS TIME, ONCE AND FOR ALL.
Time management is VERY IMPORTANT. i learnt it the hard way, like how i always do.

*P.S :ALIYAH&CHING<3, I won't be coming to school till Monday.
Wish you best of luck in the prototype.
If there's anything, you may call or sms me :)
Take Care!
We'll watch fireworks again this year.
I'll plan it. haha.
Miss you both! *loves.

home tension

2007-07-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

i have too much anger & frustration bottled up in me.

BYE.

i hate being at home these days.

lost

2007-07-27T09:19:00.000+08:00

i woke up today feeling lost. i was stumped to what i was supposed to do everyday. it's like my mind is completely blank.

why is this even happening now? i am not even close to depressed!
the things that are happening now are far beyond my control.
stress? i dont think so.

i have been missing too much of school. it's not that i wish or am running away. the thing is, i WANT to go to school. but there's so many obstructions to it. why is it so difficult? some matters are rather too personal. dont wish to even admit it.

i am in a complete mess whereby i need to sort out my thoughts and feelings. i am completely alright, just need to straigthen things out. now, thinking like an adult is essential. my parents will not be even more mad if i react like a teenager.

it is not easy living in this household whereby all are grown ups. they all lead their own life.basically, you need to survive on your own. no one helps you. we seldom talk like we used to. i miss talking to my sister actually. being the only one left schooling is not exactly easier like what i thought it would be. esp when your parents aren't at all working and earning every single month.

the challenge to live with such parents is different. i dont get to do things like how others can, but i try. i make an effort to lead a normal life. sometimes, i get jealous at how some can do the things they love, like pursuing a hobby or interest in their free time. esp when they have their parents being so supportive about it.

nevermind, this is too much.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's living with barrier between me & everyone.

missing my 8th world wonder.

2007-07-26T17:02:00.000+08:00

you're not the same these days.
i miss you, literally.

:(

things to do.

2007-07-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

Prototype
1. Assemble of Internal Components
2. Spray Paint the Knob
3. Check out progress with company

Folio:
1. Cover Page
2. Design Brief & Specifications
3. Survey on Users
4. Information Search ( Ergonomics, Existing Product & Back Problems)
5. Idea Generation
6. Selected Ideas
7. Improvised Design
8. Research on Materials
9. Final Design
10. Pro-E Drawings
11. Production Drawings
12. MoodBoard & Poster
13. User Guide
14. Maybe thats all FOR NOW.

Items to Buy:
1. Cloth
2. Non-slip Mat
3. Velcro
4. Folio

let's pray for the best of health for the next 2 weeks. bless me.

let's go.

2007-07-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

down the neverending road....

completion seems so near yet so far.
sigh.

assessment,assessment,assessment!

2007-07-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

goodness, the number of times i've died in asessments are countless.
i've become a zombie, so numb.

can't be bothered to even whine now. exhausted.
do and do and do, day in & out.

THERE'S A WHOLE WORLD OUT THERE, and i have been constrained within that four walls.
how pathetic.

i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!
i need chocolates, badly!

& lotsa caffeine.

okay, done here.
presentation here i come!

what a mundane life, this sucks.
i don't even laugh as much as i used to.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh !!!!

save me!
i'd rather be silly! :D

cinta ini kadang-kadang tak ada logika

2007-07-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

the chest pain lasted for a whole day. felt really uneasy. tried my best to neglect the agony.
didn't have the appetite to eat. thus, had fishball soup to fill the stomach. can't afford to be complacent and miss meals.
was quiet most of the time. my mind was kinda blank, more like in a daze.

school's alright i guess. there's progress, though slow. ok, whatever.

i miss the boyfriend.
it's my fault actually. thanks for the chocolates. :)
the fyp stress is beginning to get to me, i am truly sorry that i wasn't 100% there THAT jokes day & the cranky half an hour meet.
you were so near yet so far. there's some things yet to be resolved. will make it up soon, yeah?
loves.

hey serene,my summerlove*
thanks for the distressing session. i guess we got to try harder to get the passer-by name right on target. haha. :D
see you next monday :D

ok ciao, i need to get my pro-e done.

yesterdays.

2007-07-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

with the unknown frustrations and self-pressure, it becomes so tempting.

gorgeous.

2007-07-22T13:10:00.000+08:00

p.s : i love you.

2007-07-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

i am so mad/disappointed/upset right now, seriously.

have you ever felt so mad until you feel like there's no point in saying anything?

mood out, i decided to skip dinner.
which is very unlikely of me. but seems common these days.
sigh.

progressing.

2007-07-19T01:27:00.000+08:00

focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus.
focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus.
focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus.
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focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus.
focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus,focus.

it's mind over matter.

show me the way, anyone?

2007-07-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

take me to the end of this.

someone promised me chocolates last week, and it didn't come. :(
i am upset, extremely.
that person better make up for it.
or else......

the flu bug has decided to pick on me. :(

2007-07-16T08:40:00.000+08:00

i am a mess.

bye.

what's so difficult?

2007-07-12T16:26:00.000+08:00

i don't know why the hell am i so clumsy and silly?
fell and sprained my ankle and wrist. how lame. urgh.
a-okay.. i hear laughters already. -.-

damn, why is it so difficult to create/make/design a product?
send me back to stone age, anyone?
the word stress probably never even existed back in time.

i guess i've got 2 more weeks?
shit! how?!

only god knows, and only i can help myself.
i shall start tonight.

tonight determines my weekend.
oh god, please give me strength.

how i wish life is much more simple to live.
seriously, technology is shit.

IPP SYNDROME!

2007-07-11T20:18:00.000+08:00

basically, it's now or never!

FOCUS!

that's all i need.

movie marathon (:

2007-07-07T01:12:00.000+08:00

die hard 4.0 + transformers = A.W.E.S.O.M.E

PERFECT COMBO TO WATCH IN ONE NIGHT, ONE AFTER ANOTHER.

loves.

2007-07-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

i am officially super duper bored to the maximizer. OMG.

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crazy,beautiful says:
most girls who dont like eating are boring
crazy,beautiful says:
like, you are what you eat...
crazy,beautiful says:
haha
crazy,beautiful says:
okay, tat was just random
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
haha so do u like to eat?
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
i hope so
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
haha
crazy,beautiful says:
hahaha
crazy,beautiful says:
yes, i enjoy school
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
wads the link
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
hahaha
crazy,beautiful says:
OMG
7*Isa* *onlyou* says:
i mean my ex okie la..but i kinda get bored over her easily so i noe it can't work out
crazy,beautiful says:
WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT

i think i just made a fool out of myself. gosh.
*smacks head*
thank god it's only isa. sheeeeeeeesh.

how do i breathe?

2007-07-04T09:36:00.000+08:00

At this point of time, i am in the phase whereby i am on verge of either making or breaking for my IPP. The urge to just give up is so strong. There's no other factors involve in this except myself. My absence from school is probably the obvious giveaway sign to this situation.

I just need to be alone at this point in time. I know myself well, i have my own drive and motivation. it comes from within. i am not the kind of person whom you can push.

i have been doing this since last semester, which was dated last year. i even had my attachment in SCHOOL. the journey itself can drive me INSANE. i have been going to the same place for about a year continuosly, day in and out. i even hear the train in my sleep. not having holidays or a break is not helping. i can even list down the stations from the beginning to the end and even backwards without missing a station. i can recite every single language of the announcements. i can tell you what you can see from every single cabin from every single station. the kind of people who are in a particular part of the cabin, can even be classified. the rate of the train. i even know some who takes the train everyday at what time. just being in the train can make me lose my mind. standing from tampines to clementi or clementi to tampines has become a norm.

i know others who stay in the same area too but they dont seem to have the same workload as i do. i dont know, the course i am in just seem to have a pile of workload. i dream of the lecturers, commenting on my projects! everything that i learn in this course is pretty much on my own. amazing how i manage to pass certain modules with distinctions and acceptable grades.

anyway, i just need to be on my own for now. my mind needs some sorting out and re-arranging. i will be back being myself, soon. i need to clear the path i am walking on.

i owe the 2 girls alot, seriously. maybe they wont even thought of it. but i guess they are reason why i am still fighting in this course. if not for them, i would have just quit wayyyyyyyy before. i wouldn't be making my way to school. They are the reason why sometimes i force myself to come to school.

THERE ARE ONLY 34 MORE DAYS TO THE FINAL PRESENTATION. I GUESS WE ALL GOT TO MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT. (:
AND TO FINALLY GET THIS OVER AND DONE WITH.

2007-07-02T10:10:00.000+08:00

erm, hello.

the wedding was... weird. but thank god it's over.

hello.

2007-06-29T12:18:00.000+08:00

allow me to scream.